back again

remembered my password and decided to try again.

The rain has started, finally. I know that the ground needs it, I know that the reservoir needs it, I know that the pond needs it, but did it have to be today? Somehow it matches my mood when what I need is to be shaken until I rattle and then put back on the ground on a glorious day, to be reminded that we are on this earth for a reason and that that reason is not to have an affair that threatens someone else's happiness. End of rant

I'd never had an affair, I'd been alongside others who have. Many of them have left LTRs , searching for something else and I (I hate to admit it) have often condone this behaviour. 'If you're not happy get out', you know the kind of thing? But it wasn't for me, serial yes, simultaneous no. I'm such an idiot to have let it get to this and even having ended it I'm walking around feeling that I've let everyone down, especially me. SO egocentric. Time to stop